bring me something

change is the best
if it happened everyday there would be no need for periodic drastic change
it would just be consistent, natural, organic, and flowing one event into the next
breakfast lunch dinner
meet greet defeat
i'm loving these new days of noneventfulness and work and routine
with change being something i need not acknowledge
for right now at least
it just happens
and happens
again

i guess today was full. like tuesday or saturday it just came and went and here i am at the end of it, saying "seeya later" and
"what the hell happened today",
retrospect being less than nothing.
a bottle of pinot and who cares about time and circumstance, professionalism, names to remember and
moreover:
who cares about chapters in life
unfolding daily yet not impressing me at all.

and YOU!

you're like gravel in my shoe that follows my footprint everywhere
annoying and still a part of me
and you are together
and you annoy me
and follow me
and leave your prints on my cups and my lips ache
your full mouth dirty and swirling with words
my eyes dropping to the ground imagining with each step your pebble is there!

go away
and yet stay!
stay with me

forever would be the best,
i'm a highschool kid with a flaming case of something.
you gave it to me.
thank you